So this is Christmas.

[dejana]

Someday Christmas is going to be special again.

Someday I'm going to put up my Christmas tree the day after Thanksgiving. Someday I'm going to have money saved up in advance so I'm able to get my family and friends the presents they deserve. Someday I'm going to buy those presents early enough to have a nice pile of wrapped gifts under the tree long before the holiday. Someday I'm going to write and send my Christmas cards at the beginning of December. Someday I'm going to have a house, that I can decorate with Christmas lights and host a Christmas party in. Someday I'm going to spend a month out of the year surrounded by holly and mistletoe and lights and greenery. Someday I'm actually going to have the holidays free again, so I can spend them with the people I love instead of at the office. Someday that fondness for December that pops up occasionally during the rest of the year will translate into an enjoyment of the season at its proper time. Someday the Christmas season I fantasize about will be the reality.

Someday I'm going to experience the Christmas spirit again, and December 25th won't feel like just another day anymore.

But not this year.

(FYI, I'm giving and getting zip all for Christmas this year, so I hope you'll all forgive me if I don't read or comment on your gift list entries.)

Comments

[dejana.livejournal.com]

^^; I think I got a bit misunderstood. It's not so much that I missed out on all the material things others get, but that with one thing and another I didn't get to experience any Christmas at all. I moved this month, and I worked over the holiday... I never had a chance to get any of that Christmas feeling going. It's a season of celebration and togetherness, and I didn't have time for either one. Now I'm just trying to avoid any last-minute Christmas spirit so I don't get depressed over missing so much.

Thanks for the well-wishes, though. ^^