See you at the crossroads.
Jun. 25th, 2006 06:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dejana.moon is fixed, if anyone out there hasn't noticed. Hopefully things will be working much smoother from now on.
I'm back from my monthly excursion to my hometown. It went pretty well, except I probably got myself in future trouble with my sister by telling my mom something I shouldn't have, and my grandma is in the hospital. Everyone thinks Grandma will be okay, though, so I'm not too worried. She's supposed to be going home tomorrow so I'm planning to try to call sometime this week to see how she's doing.
Last night my best friend and I went to a casino and I won $150 at the penny slots. Nothing like that has ever happened to me before. The sad thing is, I feel rather guilty about it, since I'm the last person I know who needs an unexpected stack of cash. Things may not stay that way, however, since I've somehow misplaced my notebook containing my list of what bills I owe when, so I have NO IDEA what bills I have owing. Not good. That notebook also, unhappily, contains my running list of unwritten story ideas, and all my notes for "Fantaisie Sign." This could be bad.
Speaking of stories, I wrote a good chunk of chapter one of "Blood Red" over the weekend. There will probably be a half-dozen chapters of this. I said the same when I started AAO, and we all know what happened there, but I'm making a point not to enforce chapter size limits on this one so hopefully it won't balloon out of control.
In thinking about the story over the weekend I've hit on what seems to be the plot that was lurking under the surface of the initial idea. Earlier I wrote that I just wasn't feeling this fic, but I think I was looking in the wrong place. I've found the real meat of this story and now I'm genuinely excited about it. The focus of the fic has shifted a bit, so while the romance will be a key piece of the plot, it won't be the entire plot, and most of the fic is going to be entirely from Endymion's point of view. That last detail in itself makes "Blood Red" really unique as far as I can tell. The fandom can always use more Mamoru-centered fics.
On the other hand, the content of "Blood Red" is really starting to frighten me. It's really damn dark, and cruel, and twisted, and it kind of freaks me out that something like this is coming out of my brain. I'm going to write it, because I've become fascinated by the concept, but it's guaranteed to drive off half my readers and (I fear) a few friends as well. I kind of wish I hadn't told anyone about it so I could post it under my pseudonym. ^^;;
Moving on, I forced myself not to wimp out and went to the Anime Detour planning meeting this afternoon. Of course, I didn't know anyone and was shy as hell, so I didn't meet any new friends even though lots of people were introducing themselves to each other. -_- Not bad for a first step, though. There's always next time. Unfortunately I'm going to miss both con room parties they have planned. I did, however, volunteer to help out in the Ops department, and I plan to throw my name in for Tech as well for extra fun.
I'm sort of also on the website team, and have a leg up thanks to my PHP experience, but at the meeting I got out-geeked by these internet guys who went after the webmaster as if it were a job interview. -_-;; I have never seen so many people fighting so hard over the right to make some simple HTML website updates. It was incredible in a sad kind of way. And frustrating, because I KNOW I'm better at web stuff than any of those 1337 geeks. :P Anyway, got my foot in the door. I really wish I'd done this a year ago. There's semi-scary competition going on now. o.o
Man, I'm reeeeally tired. I do have to go to bed soon, since I'm working at 6 AM tomorrow morning, but I'm stalling. I'll be working regular 8-hour days this week and next week, which is 6 AM - 3 PM, which means I'll be on AIM a bit more often in the afternoons before bedtime. I hope to snag some rare chat time with some of you then.
Gosh, this ended up being really long.
I'm back from my monthly excursion to my hometown. It went pretty well, except I probably got myself in future trouble with my sister by telling my mom something I shouldn't have, and my grandma is in the hospital. Everyone thinks Grandma will be okay, though, so I'm not too worried. She's supposed to be going home tomorrow so I'm planning to try to call sometime this week to see how she's doing.
Last night my best friend and I went to a casino and I won $150 at the penny slots. Nothing like that has ever happened to me before. The sad thing is, I feel rather guilty about it, since I'm the last person I know who needs an unexpected stack of cash. Things may not stay that way, however, since I've somehow misplaced my notebook containing my list of what bills I owe when, so I have NO IDEA what bills I have owing. Not good. That notebook also, unhappily, contains my running list of unwritten story ideas, and all my notes for "Fantaisie Sign." This could be bad.
Speaking of stories, I wrote a good chunk of chapter one of "Blood Red" over the weekend. There will probably be a half-dozen chapters of this. I said the same when I started AAO, and we all know what happened there, but I'm making a point not to enforce chapter size limits on this one so hopefully it won't balloon out of control.
In thinking about the story over the weekend I've hit on what seems to be the plot that was lurking under the surface of the initial idea. Earlier I wrote that I just wasn't feeling this fic, but I think I was looking in the wrong place. I've found the real meat of this story and now I'm genuinely excited about it. The focus of the fic has shifted a bit, so while the romance will be a key piece of the plot, it won't be the entire plot, and most of the fic is going to be entirely from Endymion's point of view. That last detail in itself makes "Blood Red" really unique as far as I can tell. The fandom can always use more Mamoru-centered fics.
On the other hand, the content of "Blood Red" is really starting to frighten me. It's really damn dark, and cruel, and twisted, and it kind of freaks me out that something like this is coming out of my brain. I'm going to write it, because I've become fascinated by the concept, but it's guaranteed to drive off half my readers and (I fear) a few friends as well. I kind of wish I hadn't told anyone about it so I could post it under my pseudonym. ^^;;
Moving on, I forced myself not to wimp out and went to the Anime Detour planning meeting this afternoon. Of course, I didn't know anyone and was shy as hell, so I didn't meet any new friends even though lots of people were introducing themselves to each other. -_- Not bad for a first step, though. There's always next time. Unfortunately I'm going to miss both con room parties they have planned. I did, however, volunteer to help out in the Ops department, and I plan to throw my name in for Tech as well for extra fun.
I'm sort of also on the website team, and have a leg up thanks to my PHP experience, but at the meeting I got out-geeked by these internet guys who went after the webmaster as if it were a job interview. -_-;; I have never seen so many people fighting so hard over the right to make some simple HTML website updates. It was incredible in a sad kind of way. And frustrating, because I KNOW I'm better at web stuff than any of those 1337 geeks. :P Anyway, got my foot in the door. I really wish I'd done this a year ago. There's semi-scary competition going on now. o.o
Man, I'm reeeeally tired. I do have to go to bed soon, since I'm working at 6 AM tomorrow morning, but I'm stalling. I'll be working regular 8-hour days this week and next week, which is 6 AM - 3 PM, which means I'll be on AIM a bit more often in the afternoons before bedtime. I hope to snag some rare chat time with some of you then.
Gosh, this ended up being really long.
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Date: Jun. 26th, 2006 12:31 am (UTC)Hey, Dejana's buying everyone dinner!! :)
Well, I'm glad to hear that you are trying new things. It's always scary at first...even though us pushy extroverted types are better at hiding our uncertainity than our more honest shy friends. Besides, the most important thing is that you have fun, anyway.
I hope your grandmother continues to get better. Now, get some rest! :)
~December
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Date: Jun. 26th, 2006 12:49 am (UTC)Still, the only thing to do is to write it the way it wants to be written, whether it may alienate your current audience or not. There are always new readers out there, and what drives some away interests others.
Besides, you're right. There aren't enough Mamoru-viewpoint stories out there.
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Date: Jun. 26th, 2006 02:35 am (UTC)Nevertheless, I'm excited to hear that you're excited about "Blood Red." I love your writing and I've been sad to hear that you haven't been able to muster up the desire to write, and I hope this doesn't slow down.
Anyway, on real life notes, never feel bad about winning money at gambling. You might not need the money now, but you never know when you might need some emergency cash.
And I hope that everything with your grandmother keeps working out. I've had a few health scares in the family recently, and they're nerve wracking no matter how minor they are.