Ah, RahXephon. Fly me to the music.

My God I'm dizzy today. Argh. So annoying. I haven't been this lightheaded since back when all this weird heart stuff started. Of course it may have something to do with the fact that I've been awake since midnight.

Otakon is next week. I feel like I'm falling behind on stuff I should be getting done, but I'm not. Strange. I have work today and tomorrow and then it's vacation time. More meetings this weekend for AD. I'd been planning to head up north for a couple days after the Saturday meeting, but now I just found out there's a tech meeting on Sunday. Double argh. Not sure what I'm gonna do now.

Still gotta remember to call and cancel my Days Inn reservation.

In other news, I am a good person. I'm just stupid sometimes.

She only sleeps when it's raining.

I am so tired of this weird heart crap. Sometimes it's weak and flaky and hiccups and skips beats, and sometimes it beats so strongly I can see my chest shake. I'm sick of the lightheadedness and the not-right feeling. I'm sick of wondering if I'm going to just suddenly drop dead... if I'll be sitting around someday and all of a sudden there'll be all this pain and it'll be too late...

After Otakon I'll probably get another appointment to see the doctor, and if she still doesn't find anything wrong I'll see someone else. This may indeed be no big deal but it wasn't happening six months ago and I want it to stop.

And now for something completely different...

You know what's sad? Lately I've started to feel a touch of envy toward sitcom characters. Not because I want the friends or family or world that they have, but because their lives are less complicated than life on the internet.

Seriously. Sometimes I listen to people talking about their family woes and their friendship dramas and I think, "It must be nice to have such a simple little circle..."