the better part of me

I like making jokes about my inner editor - that she's an evil bitch and she's messing me up, etc. I honestly don't find her to be a hassle, however. I cherish her, honestly.

I don't like my story. It's boring, lame and pretty much drivel. It has a few nuggets that truly entertain me, but the rest of it is pretty boring. Even spicing it up with random humor doesn't do much to save it.

You've said it before, and I will simply reiterate it: in some ways, dear, we are very much alike. I, too, prefer hand-written first drafts, and I consider my typed copy to be a vast improvement.

I'm trying to abandon criticism and just push through this story and have fun doing it, but this is one fic that will most likely never see the light of day after the 30th. I think it's good that I chose to do the fandom I did because I have almost zero chance of anyone in the fandom liking the story anyway, and it's not like this is FLOAP or anything like that.

As for the fanfic thing - I agree. I started by writing Original fiction when I was just a little girl, and reading back over some of it is truly, horrendously embarrassing, but at least it was my own work - and it is FAR more challenging to write. I will admit that I feel a bit of a cheat for not doing something original for NaNo. *shrug* For me, I wasn't about being an official participant, though. It was about the challenge of it. CAN I write 50k words, one way or another, in 30 days?

I don't know - we're not there yet. But you keep plugging along, and I will, too. <3